August 18, 2010

Reassurance

I had a short meeting yesterday with my nurse at Kaiser. I guess they replaced the Prenatal I class with a one-on-one meeting with your nurse. This gave her time to go over all the different screenings, tests, and procedures they are going to do throughout the pregnancy. It was reassuring to talk to her and let her know that I did not feel pregnant in any way. She assured me that this was completely normal. In fact, when I got home after that afternoon, I was exhausted, and I have started (finally) to start feeling pressure in my lower abdomen. Friday is the big day when I meet with the doctor and get to hear the heartbeat for the first time!

Grapefruit

If my uterus was the size of a small grapefruit, wouldn't I feel something!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!

Waiting to Tell

Now that I am far enough along (and hopefully everything is fine with the baby) we are debating when we should start letting people know that we are pregnant. I think that the most common reaction is going to be shock...not so much that we are having a baby, but that we were able to keep it a secret for nearly three months. You see, I have the biggest mouth in the world and can NEVER keep a secret. For some reason, this was one that I wanted to keep. After trying so hard for three years, and everything we went through, this was something I wanted to savor with just us before sharing it with other people. The biggest surprise has been Brady. He has known since the first day and hasn't let it slip to anyone (except maybe a few kids at school who he doesn't really know). Anyway, this upcoming week I have my appointment with the nurse and doctor, so final word on the health of the baby will come this week and the word will be out after Friday I am sure. One more week to enjoy our little secret!

Anxiety Setting In Again

I never felt so much anxiety when I was pregnant with Brady. I guess after so many years of hearing things that have happened to different friends and family with their pregnancies, I just have more to worry about. Part of my anxiety comes from wondering if this is still too good to be true. ...and knowing the risks with having PCOS. Ignorance truely was bliss with the first one.

I really have nothing to complain about since my pregnancy has essentially been perfect. I have had very little nausea, no vomiting, and I'm hardly tired at all. I'm not gaining weight yet or retaining any fluids, I'm not uncomfortable, or going to the bathroom more frequently. In fact, I feel so good that I wonder to myself if I actually am pregnant.

I have another appointment tomorrow with the nurse. I'm not sure if she is going to listen for the heartbeat, but believe me, I would feel so much better if I knew that everything was going okay in there.

First Day Back at Work

I didn't realize how difficult it would be to keep my pregnancy a secret from my coworkers. I was dying to tell them all day. Every time a date would come up, or we would be talking about scheduling for things in the spring...it made it even more difficult. I'm thankful that Tina knows...I would have exploded if I couldn't talk to her. I'm dying to tell Heather, Jennie, and Pam. They all know how hard it has been for me to get pregnant that they are just going to die when they hear this. At one point today it was just Heather and me sitting in our room doing work and I almost blurted it out. Self-control does not come easy for me. We have decided that we are going to tell our family on September 11th and we will tell our friends on September 24th.

I also heard back from the doctor about my progesterone level. He said that it was nothing to worry about. He wouldn't have been worried unless it dropped below 17. He said everything is progressing nicely. Since I've been nauseous beyond belief the past two days, I'm going to have to take his word for it and stop beeing a nervous Nelly!

Terrified

If anyone has ever told you NOT to look up medical advice on the computer, listen to them! I have just totally freaked myself out about my progesterone levels. We went to the doctor on Thursday and saw our little peanut on the ultrasound. Heartbeat was good, and the size of the baby was perfect for the timing. I had all my bloodwork completed at that appointment too and checked the results last night. On August 9th, my progesterone level was a nice 24.33 which the doctor was pleased with. On August 18th, it had dropped to 19.38. I know that the doctor looked at the results prior to posting them, and he didn't say anything. I'm also currently on Prometrium to help my progesterone levels. My stomach is in knots, and I'm not going to hear back from him until Monday. Pray, pray, pray that this is a normal dip due to the time of day of the tests and what I have had to eat and drink. This is driving me crazy!