A Great Appointment on Friday, but a (kinda') scary Saturday night

Friday I met with Dr. Thompson again to discuss round #2 of Clomid.  He did an internal ultrasound to check to see if I had cysts on my ovaries.  The great news (and there's a bunch of it):
1.  I lost 6 pounds since my last visit.
2.  My blood pressure was completely normal, no elevation, even with the nerves.
3.  No ovarian cysts.
4.  Follicles on my ovaries that are ready to produce eggs!

After our findings this week, Dr. Thompson decided to do one more month on the 50 mg of Clomid instead of the 100mg.  He was very optimistic and hopeful that this might be the month.

Scary Saturday.  I'm on Provera to bring on my period this week.  I was told by the pharmacists that it was impossible to get your period while on Provera because of what it is doing to your hormones.  Well, yesterday I had some breakthrough bleeding.  I got a little nervous, but it stopped, so all seems fine.  Here's to another month.

South Beach - phase 1

So I decided to try to help the meds out as much as I can.  I started the first phase of the South Beach diet this week hoping that it will help with my insulin resistance enough to help the Clomid help my body ovulate.  I've actually been doing a pretty decent job the past two weeks with exercising, and hopefully, this will help as well.  If anything, I will definitely lose weight doing South Beach, so should I get pregnant, it will definitely help me keep my weight down.  My problem is not losing weight on a diet, it is sticking with a diet.  The good thing about South Beach is that if I can change my lifestyle, and the way I look and feel about food, then I won't be on a "diet" the rest of my life, it will just be the way that I eat.  (Holiday's and my birthday are obvious exceptions).  I already feel defeated after this first round of Clomid didn't work.  I really feel that this is hopeless.  I have pretty much decided that hormone shots are a non-option.  I won't go that far.  It was a huge step to even take the Clomid.  Maybe God has different plans for us...

Losing Hope

So I've done some more research since not ovulating on the last dose of Clomid.  They always start you on the lowest dose of Clomid (50mg) and then increase to 150mg if it doesn't work.  Some doctors go up as high as 250mg.  The frustrating news is that being insulin resistant and having PCOS also means that you can be Clomid resistent and would need hormone shots.  I don't think that Brad and I are going to go that far.  The solution: lose weight!  I would need to lose almost 100 pounds to be where the "ideal" weight to get pregnant.  This is just all the more reason I need to step up my workouts and really focus in on my diet.  Ugh!

Sad Day

I just got the results from my progesterone test today.  It says that I did NOT ovulate this past month.  I'm not sure what happens next.  I did everything I was supposed to, and took all the drugs that I was prescribed.  I hate this.  I guess I thought that this was going to be easy.  Not sure why I would assume that.  Life is never easy for me.  Nobody pays my bills or gives me thousands of dollars to spend on a house, furniture, vacations like my siblings.  I can't get pregnant at the drop of a hat.  Why does life have to suck for me!?!?!  I'm a good mom and I'm a good teacher.  I'm a good Catholic while other people don't work and don't go to church.  If I'm so good at this, why won't God give me another chance at motherhood?

Argh!

I got the progesterone blood test this morning at 8am, and the results still aren't in.  If Kaiser tracked phone calls, they would think that I'm psycho.  I think that I called at least 10 times today trying to figure out what the results are.  On top of that, I've been nauseous for the past two days...nerves or pregnant?  Would I really be feeling it this early?  And if I am feeling it this early, is there more than one baby making the symptoms worse?  Argh!

Feeling pregnant...or is it just gas?

Now I'm starting to overthing everything.  Tomorrow is the blood test. 

Is it too soon...

to start coming up with names?  I'm dying to move on from this...